Saturday, June 25, 2011

Happy Birthday, Mom...

My mom is amazing. She's beautiful, on the inside and out. She is selfless, giving and has a heart of gold. I don't think I've ever met a person who didn't like my mom. She's just that type of person, friendly and nice to everyone she meets. She loves the Lord with all her heart and it's evident in her life. She never puts herself before others. You can't say that about a lot of people. She has a marriage that I strive for. A love that is lasting through every up and down. She has always opened her home to all my friends and treated them like daughters. She is simply a wonderful woman.

She was always my mom growing up, but now that I'm an adult she is also one of my best friends. I have learned and continue to learn from her as a mom, wife and friend. She is the best maama to my girls. They love her SO much and she would do anything for them. She (and my daddy) has sacrificed so much for me over the years and I'm forever grateful for that. My husband loves and respects her so much and I'm so happy they have such a good relationship.

I would be lost without her and I'm so thankful that God made her MY mom. She puts me in my place when I need it, supports me, and loves me no matter what. I love being her daughter.

I love you mom!! Happy Birthday :)

Friday, June 17, 2011

Happy Birthday, Grandma...

My Grandma has been such an important part of my life. I have always had an amazing relationship with her and I'm so thankful for that. She is beauty, grace and quiet faith. An amazing mom to five children, grandma to ten (maybe a few more somewhere along the way) and great-grandma to eight. She rarely raises her voice and loves with all her heart. I can only hope that I can be like her someday.

As a little girl I would go to Columbus often to stay with her and grandpa. We always played Memory and Bargain Hunter, went shopping and always went to Evie's (grocery store). At Evie's she would get me a 1/2 dozen donut holes and let me eat them as we went thru the store (I always sat underneath the cart, the old school kind you could sit under)and she would pay for the empty bag at the checkout. Such a silly memory, but one I will always cherish.

As a teenager I still loved spending weekends and summers at her house. I actually met my first boyfriend in her neighborhood. She has always been one of my biggest fans and the feeling is mutual.

As an adult I love spending time with her just as much as I did when I was young. She loves my girls more than anything and I'm so blessed that they get to know her like I do. I love visiting with her. We always talk about past memories and I know that we both cherish everyone of them.

She is the beginning of a lifetime of love and I'm so thrilled that God allowed me to be a part of it.

I love you Grandma with all my heart <3

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Blessed...

There are days when I get overwhelmed. There's always another bill due,  something else around the house breaking and depending on the day, two crying girls (at the same time). On these days I have to stop, take a breathe, say a prayer and remember...I'm blessed. 

I have an amazing husband who works hard for our family and loves us like crazy.

Two beautiful, healthy daughters who are my heart. My love for them is like nothing I've ever known. There are those days when I think I might pull my hair out, but then I get a hug from Jilli or a smile from Delaney and it's all worth it. At the end of the day my life is complete because of these two precious girls.

My parents, well they are just too good to me. They are the most selfless people I know. An amazing example of lasting love and commitment...and they're pretty awesome grandparents too! My in-laws are wonderful too. Always willing to help out whenever we need it.

My friends mean the world to me. I don't have a huge group of friends, but I do have the best friends a girl could ask for. They know everything about me and the memories we have made and still make are something I cherish. We don't get to see each other as often as we used to, but I'm thrilled that after all these years we are still so close.

My job is good for me. Helps to pay those never ending bills, amazing hours and loving the people you work with helps a lot too!

I don't know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future. I know that no matter how good, bad or crazy my life is I never want to forget how blessed I am.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Jillian Ruby...

Jillian is my firstborn, my mini-me, my heart. She is a million different things and she's only two. She is bossy, constantly telling me not to do something, say something or telling me to play with her. She's a little bit mean too, sometimes I think she gets this sudden urge and hauls off and smacks me. She is a little lover, stopping for hugs and kisses, telling me she loves me and that I'm her best friend. Makes my heart melt. She is incredibly smart, can count to 15, says her ABC's and can sing a bunch of songs. Nick Jr has a lot to do with that! Who said TV was bad for kids? Her imagination is great - she's a little mommy to her babies and mimics the things I do and say to her baby sister. Sometimes I just watch her and wonder how I lived my life without her. She is beautiful, her blue eyes and dark hair are gonna break hearts someday, but that's the last thing I want to worry about right now. I'm going to enjoy her being little and cherish every memory.

Today while driving to my grandparents with my mom she said "Maama, I need some coffee". Maybe she's observant and knows that car rides equal coffee...or maybe I just go to Starbucks too often!

Every night we say our prayers, give kisses and she says "nigh night mommy, I wuv u" in a whispery little voice. No matter how bad a day is, she makes it better.

I love you my Jillibean <3

Sunday, May 29, 2011

How great is our God...

As I was sitting on the couch tonight feeding Delaney, I was in awe of my tiny little girl. This song popped into my head,"how great is our God, sing with me, how great is our God, and all will see how great, how great is our God", and I'm so thankful that song is 100% true. I was terrified that day at the doctor when they said that Delaney would have to be delivered early. I was terrified and then I prayed, and everyone around me prayed, and then I was calm. I was completely at peace with what was happening. Our God is great, He loves us and never leaves us. We may stray from Him, but He is always right there. Delaney is our miracle. God allowed everything to happen in His perfect timing to get us where we are today.

My faith has grown leaps and bounds since February 18th, 2011. Growing up in a strong Christian faith sometimes makes you take for granted God's greatness. Maybe He allowed Delaney's birth to happen the way it did to make me see where my faith was lacking? I'm thankful He did. I'm not looking back, I'm going forward with a renewed commitment to understanding God's direction for my life, and the life of my family.

It's very important to me that Jillian and Delaney understand God's love for them. I LOVE to hear Jilli sing "Jesus loves me" and how excited she gets about going to church. This is only the beginning. The journey that follows is unknown, but with faith that can move mountains I know it will be great!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

We'll see how long this lasts...

I'm definitely not a writer, blogger, etc...my English might not always be grammatically correct, but its life.

I don't have a very eventful, lots to talk about life, but I'm a mommy. Being a mommy is pretty eventful in itself I guess you could say. It's what I'm meant to be - a mom, wife, nurturer. I can remember playing mommy when I was a little kid. I would carry my huge baby doll, Elizabeth, with me everywhere. I'm pretty sure I even left her in a few stores while shopping...along with my purse (promise I won't do that with my real babies). I loved playing mommy as a little kid, but I love *being* a mommy even more. No one can really explain the way you feel when you first hold that, tiny, wrinkly bundle of joy in your arms for the first time. It's a feeling that you can only experience...it really is unexplainable. The ups and downs of parenthood is something that should be journaled. Time goes by SO fast and by the time you stop and take a breathe, it's been 2 years and you not only have a 2 year old, but you also have a 3 month old. I can honestly say that I have barely filled out Jillian's baby book. I want to remember more. I want to be able to look back and see what joys, struggles, milestones happened. Reading my best friends blog tonight made me realize I want to *try* and keep record of everylittlething that happens. I'm super sentimental. I love looking back at cards, videos, pictures. I love to relive a moment. I want my girls to be able to see just how happy I am to be their mommy.